I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Rethinking my life and where I am and why I am here and how I got here. This is not new. Many many people have taken this same journey. Some have felt the need to leave to figure it out. For me, I'm just taking a break in my backyard.
In all honesty (and isn't a blog just that... honesty) I don't know what I'm doing. I know how I got here and I feel like ..................... I don't know. I guess I need to learn how to master my thoughts. Heck, if I could find them that would help. I wish I could still my mind.
Interesting, I titled this "Thinking" and yet I want to still my mind.
He said his answer was hard work. Mine was time. I just don't know if I have any more hard work left in me. I'm exhausted from the chaos. I'm tired of needing pills to cope. I just want to be me.
I used to just want to be adored. Now I just want to be me.
Looks like I have some more thinking to do. :-)
